Holiday and Post-Holiday

Hello folks! Be careful, this post might bore you half to death. Trying to write beautiful words and topics is deadly difficult, so rather than not posting at all, I’m back to my old writing style.

This holiday, some friends and I participated in a web design competition, so we worked on it quite hard. A thing that kind of bizarre here is that the server provided by the committee of the competition was hacked, so a lot of the teams’ websites were mysteriously lost a few components of the website or even the whole website. It might be the committee’s trick, though, but this problem was resolved when they decided to let us use our own hosting. Unfortunately, my friends and I didn’t pass to the final stage. But that’s okay 🙂

Another thing I did this holiday is taking a driving course, and… Getting a driving license! Finally. My parents were serious about this driving thing, which forced me to take 10 hours of driving course -_-. I think that was too much, for I had some experiences on driving a car previously and the driving instructor keeps on following the same routes day by day. But my driving skill is, indeed, need a lot of refinement. The good thing to own a driving license is they allow me to drive now, even when we visited a lot of relatives. Another progress!

The new semester finally comes. It was hard to finally took off all the fun (emphasis on Baking Life, The Sims 3, and Plants Vs Zombies :p) behind. What is even harder to leave are family meetings, the warmth in it, and the chance to know more about the cousins. Ugh, I wish I could go home every weekend and have a chill conversation with each one of them =(. That was too much to wish for, I think, but after all, it’s good to be back to campus!

This fifth term is immensely different from the last one. For instance, the minimized role in campus’ committees and organization gives me the chance to finally take more credits ever in my whole university life: 21 credits. Err, okay, most of the people won’t think this credits are excessive, but for me, it is. There are a lot of reasons behind this, of course, but it won’t be shared here. Just for thought, University of Indonesia only has 4 effective month of lecture in a semester. This is a veeeery short term, not to add that there were Ied Fitr holiday this term. Taking 21 credits is rather risky.

Fifth term means I can choose which lecture I want to study, according to the field of computer science I want to learn more. There are still compulsory courses I have to take. Some of them are dull nor very difficult, which make them not so fascinating. The chosen courses are day saver, they act as a coffee to face boring courses. Whatever happens this term, face it, don’t leave it! 😀

Old friends pass away, new friends appear. It is just like the days. An old day passes, a new day arrives. The important thing is to make it meaningful: a meaningful friend – or a meaningful day. 
Dalai Lama 


Anggap saja ini salah satu tulisan saya saat labil, pada saat tamu bulanan datang dan rasanya hormon lebih berpengaruh daripada akal saya.

Langsung saja. Belakangan saya berpikir, berapa banyak hal inkonsisten yang sudah saya lakukan dalam beberapa bulan terakhir? Seingat saya, 9 bulan yang lalu saya berjanji untuk tidak akan melakukan X, namun akhirnya saya terjun ke dalam situ juga. Walaupun dengan pikiran yang lebih matang dan lebih dewasa, tapi kok sama saja. Apakah ini memang bentuk X yang terjadi pada siapapun, atau ternyata saya yang masih belum cukup dewasa?

Berikutnya mengenai masalah C. Lebih parah lagi, dalam kurun waktu kurang dari 1 bulan saya terikat lagi dengan madu yang ditawarkan C. Padahal, lagi-lagi, saya juga pernah berikrar bahwa saya tidak ingin terlibat C dan ingin inversnya. Apakah ini madu? Well, definitely not. Bentuk C kali ini layaknya Anda diberi peliharaan bayi kelinci, dan pilihannya 2: dipelihara setengah-setengah hingga mati di tengah jalan atau dipelihara sampai dewasa dan dapat menghasilkan lebih banyak kelinci. Oke, mungkin untuk hal yang satu ini bolehlah saya berkata, “Insya Allah akan berguna di kemudian hari”,  jadi dimaafkan saja ya.

Belum lagi C, ternyata D juga datang. Padahal niatan saya, C XOR D. Dengan kata lain, cukup lakukan salah satu, keduanya akan membuat lampu tidak menyala. Tetapi dengan pertimbangan klise, yaitu “cari pengalaman“, kembali saya tercemplung.

Konsekuensi dari C, D, X, kegiatan-1, kegiatan-2, …. kegiatan-n? Mungkin keluarga yang agak terabaikan, kuliah yang nilai-oriented, dan pastinya hampir tidak ada waktu untuk kesenangan pribadi yang (untuk saat ini) cuma bisa saya dapat di rumah. Akibat inkonsistensi dan pikiran pendek? Atau malah ini justru pelarian fiktif saya dari kuliah yang menekan?

Ah, who care? I want to achieve all, even though I have to drink thousand cups of coffee to get awaken.

Idealism and Metamorfosis

I think it’s normal for people in my age (read: high school student and college student) to find his/her identity by trying and having some principles around.  That surely is happening to me too.

For me, it’s very very normal to do some activities to develop myself. Either it is joining campus organization, event committee, or even a religious group. It’s like, hey, I must do any activities that will be useful in my future! Not that I reject any criminal good time, but I really looking forward to self-development activities and experiences, since I had too many holiday back then :p

Having some principles means more efforts to stick to it, especially when your principle is different with the mainstream one. It’s pretty tiring to stick to it, when the devils are all around and little that supports. But I guess if you think it’s the right one, why not?

Sticking to an idealism will somehow change you slowly. The idea of changing yourself, and old friends take some distance to the new you is kinda scary for me.

However, I’m preparing to do it soon, since it’s an obligation for everyone like me. It’s like, I’m gonna be 19 soon, and that’s only a year to twenties. Almost 19 years living on this mortal world, but what have I done for myself and the people around me?

The future might be hard with it. Yeah, I have to upgrade myself!

One step at a time there’s no need to rush
It’s like learning to fly or falling in love
It’s gonna happen and it’s supposed to happen
That we find the reasons why, one step at a time

(Jordin Sparks – One Step At A Time)

Done it, sorry for the weird post, just what I had in mind…

It’s not about finding who’s the best for you, but it’s you that should be upgraded…